The result of not following a desire

You didn't ask me to stay. When a persons words are:"have you though about staying?" "Do you want to stay?" "I wish you could stay longer" all are indications of a desire but no the action itself. Why is that? Are those words that you are anticipating, hoping, even craving for are so hard to be said? God knows that there are a lot of what ifs, but, maybe somehow, it could be, it wrong, its right, or I just don't know how to let go. To let go its to suffer a heart wound, to regret, to wonder, to doubt or to live the life you were meant to or the biggest mistake that you can't take back. Either way, that flicker of hope and desire will never leave, not truly. The mind wonders and questions many things that were and would've been. Instead, its best to enjoy what is and can become with what you have created. Those questions that you repeat to yourself, try to ignore them. Are they worth being answered? Perhaps. Are they ever gonna be answered? Probably.  They say the truth is always discovered and the world is a small place. Maybe that is true but eventually, you will learn that your decisions were based on not only the mind but the heart. If you can live with your decisions, all may be alright. However, that unsettling thought will linger til a satisfied answered is found.